2015 is here. The celebrations are done and the hangovers have worn off, the trees are down and once again we’re floundering around in the dark part of the year and picking up where we left off like nothing happened. The glitter and tinsel fade away and winter takes over again; no longer magical now, just cold and damp enough to chill your bones.
2014 was all kinds of year for me. It had massive highs and crushing lows. It had excitement and creation and it had slumps where I could barely lift a finger to my keyboard. And as I look back at it, four days in to the new year, with the mist just starting to burn off outside my window, I think “what, as a photographer, as an artist, did I really achieve in 2014?” And the answer that comes back is “Not nearly as much as I’d like.”
Now, let’s be clear, I made some pictures of which I’m really proud: Black Annis, Massive Wagons, Augustines at Kendal Calling. And I wouldn’t take those away for anything. But I can’t help but feel that somehow I squandered what could have been a really great year if only I’d put my mind to it; that I could have done so much and I ended up doing so little. So as 2015 dawns I find myself in much the same place as I was at the start of 2014, and that’s disappointing.
I have goals for this year. I don’t know if I’ll achieve them. But I’d rather set them out here than not (because otherwise how can I do a self-referential post in a year’s time about how I didn’t?).
This year, I want to:
- Shoot more music promo work. Way more. The Manchester music scene is full of bands that need promotional images.
- Shoot more personal work. I stagnated last year because I wasn’t getting of my backside and just shooting whenever I could. I let life get in the way.
- Continue my Celtic Gods project. I have a shoot in pre-production for this, but I’m still looking for a model.
- Start another personal project that I’ve been thinking about for some time now.
- Stop letting life get in the way of who I am and what I do.
Of course, as my mum used to be fond of saying (quoting, of course, Lennon), “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” So I guess we’ll see in a year’s time whether I actually managed to change the direction of things and break out of the inertia that’s kept me static for a year.
In the end, though, I’ve got nothing to lose by trying.