My name’s Graham, and I’m a workaholic

Well, that’s not completely accurate. I guess that a better way of putting it is “I’m a doing-stuff-aholic.” I don’t like not having stuff to do, and I have a low boredom threshold.

Weekends are, in many ways, the worst time for this particular -aholism. You’re supposed to relax at the weekend, do relaxing things and generally Not Work. That’s just not the way I’m wired, I’m afraid. I spent most of yesterday planning out a new personal project (more to be done on that before I announce it), answering casting calls and messages on ModelMayhem and generally wishing that the Internet would keep itself busier at the weekends so that I’d have something to look at on a Sunday afternoon in between my bouts of doing stuff1.

It applies to weekdays too, of course. When I’ve done a shoot I find at I can’t not edit it. I tell myself that my lunch breaks from work are for eating getting away from the computer, but almost without fail I find that five minutes into lunch I’ve grabbed a bite to eat and fired up Lightroom. I just can’t switch my brain off.

Not that this is necessarily a bad thing; it means that I’m quite good at getting work out to people in a very short space of time (with my most recent shoot I’d promised two weeks to delivery and delivered in two days). In my day-to-day web development work it means that I can get things done quite quickly, so long as the work isn’t mind-meltingly complicated, which it has been of late, unfortunately. But I’m not always completely sure that it’s good for my mental health. For a start, the full brightness screen that you need to do photo editing isn’t exactly conducive to a good night’s sleep, and not having a good night’s sleep makes it hard for me to concentrate the next morning, and that in turn means that I get grumpy and frustrated and… Well, you get the picture.

But for all that, I’m starting to appreciate that my ability to get things done, as long as I’m focussed and not listening to the Little Voice, is a real boon. I need to harness it more. Hell, maybe I even need to make it official and turn it into a Work Ethic. Now that would be scary.

1N.B.: It’s likely that I just need to widen my web reading, I know. But somehow there’s no balm for an empty Google Reader.